tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14364074341559663972024-03-12T16:01:00.266-07:00LucaspeeboA blogger who loves writing about everything. He spills everything when he is writing.Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-67029992623462877872017-12-24T04:16:00.003-08:002018-03-27T03:27:25.250-07:005 Things I've Learned From 2017<div style="text-align: justify;">
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I was tested with a lot of things basically. But I had so much fun this year! </div>
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I'd say yes to the things that would help me to grow. I'd say no to the things that stopped my self-growth. I learned that sometimes you have to say yes to the unknowns. Even like you are afraid of the uncertainties in life. Saying yes means you are up for the struggles. </div>
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But if the struggles should let you grow into the whole new person. The struggles should be worth the pain. But sometimes we have to think wisely before we make a decision. Growing up means we are able to make our own decisions. It doesn't matter if the decisions are going to make us or break us. It's our own decisions. </div>
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Saying no is okay. We have to say no to things that no longer help us to grow. We have to say no to those people who used us for their benefits. We gotta say no to the conversations that we are no longer comfortable. It's okay to say no. We have to practice this in our daily lives.</div>
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I think it's always easy to get comfortable and happy when things are going good when what your heart's not fully in something and you're starting to lose interest, it's time to move on. </div>
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Don't ever get too comfortable with something and someone. There is something you need to work on along the journey and you shouldn't feel like everything is okay and fine.</div>
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There is always something to work on. There is always something I am lacking.</div>
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I personally think that being apart from my family makes me stronger. I've started to pay my own bills, tuition fees and etc since my second year at Uni. Getting my first car. I think I've learned a lot about financial planning. There are times I felt like I need my family to be around when I am at my lowest moments but I've made it. I've secured my dream job. I paid my own bills every month. I survived living in a big city. I am grateful that I managed to achieve all these things in my 20's. Knowing I have a lot of time to develop myself and achieve more great things in life.</div>
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Sometimes you have to know the real meaning of being away from home. You will cry yourself to sleep because you are missing home. But you know, in order to achieve great things, you just have to be apart with someone you love. I kinda glad I am away from home. I don't want to get too comfortable and I would end up not achieving anything in life.</div>
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Feeling lost, it doesn't mean you are hopeless. </div>
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Breathe, sit down and relax. Don't compare to those people who have it all. Don't chase to become a better version of yourself. It takes time. And you should take your time to develop yourself.</div>
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It took me a really long time to be comfortable with my life. But back then, I am clueless about what's going to come next. But I <span style="background-color: white;">learned </span>to tell myself that it's okay to feel lost. This is a part of my journey to discover great things in life and I should be grateful that I still have time to develop myself. I trust in myself that I will be on the right track and I will be just fine.</div>
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Being lost isn't always bad, as long you have a plan to get back on track.</div>
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But if you are reading this and you are feeling lost, I hope that you will find your inner-peace and learn to practice self-love. You deserve it, we all do. </div>
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These days, it's okay to feel lost. As long as we know, great things take time.</div>
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Looking back I realized that I've grown so much compared to the person I was last year. Back then I was scared of a lot of things. I am not even able to be alone or else I will feel empty most of the time. Last year, I need to surround myself with a lot of people but this year is different. I enjoyed being alone. I enjoyed my "me" time. I love writing so I spent hours writing about things I love.</div>
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I think that in my 20's, I would feel lonely most of the time and I find that's okay. </div>
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It's okay to be alone. It's okay to feel lonely. Taking your own sweet time, no rush and develop. I believe self-growth the most. I always believe that if you are alone, you are able to achieve amazing things. Yes, we need others to make it but sometimes all you need is yourself.</div>
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I am on my self-discovery. I am on a journey to find myself. I am always amazed at my own capabilities to think and do something that sometimes I thought I won't be able to do it. I will keep on doing things on my own and I will always believe in my own capabilities. That's so important.</div>
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<i><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">In 2018.....</span></b></i></div>
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I want to continue doing these things that I've only discovered this year. I want to keep on writing and inspire people. I am touched by the number of messages I've received saying that I've helped them in depression, relationship and coping with life basically. I just hope everyone is having a time this year and continue doing an amazing job next year. Let's hope for more great things in 2018!</div>
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Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-62622135115142762332017-11-07T20:20:00.002-08:002018-03-27T03:27:32.310-07:00Coping Things in 2017<br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I don’t know why but I have a
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I always scared that I will end
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me to death. I am scared that nobody is going to be there for me. As for now, I
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I think growing up, we only need
those people who can please us and not expecting too much from us. Because for
me, I hate when people expect too much from me and expect me to do things for
them. I might sound selfish but that’s the truth, I hate when people think I
can do things for them. I will only do it willingly for someone I love or
adore. I won’t do something or show my efforts for someone who I am not into. I
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can’t live up to their expectations... This is why I decided that I won’t live
up to anyone’ expectations. I will just do my own things and follow the flow. I
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";"><b><i><u>BEING A FAILURE</u></i></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Afraid that I will end up being a
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done,</span><span style="margin: 0px;"><span style="font-family: "calibri";"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "calibri";">I will come up with a freaking
plan. Be it financial planning or any plan that I’ve created just to make my
life easier and organized. I kept every receipt and I will jot-down my
expenses. It becomes a habit. I really need to track my expenses because
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">Friends. I hated when people used
me for their benefits. Knowing that I would do anything for my friends, some
people just took me for granted. Some are using me for this, some are using me
for that. It’s pretty obvious as time goes by and I’ve decided that I need to
take a break from these people and re-evaluate everything. I stopped talking to
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<b></b><i></i><u></u><sub></sub><sup></sup><strike></strike>Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-47914003887848021922015-08-13T06:43:00.002-07:002018-03-27T03:28:35.346-07:00Peluang.orang cakap kalau ada peluang depan mata, ambik.<br />
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peluang itu rare orang cakap. jadi sentiasa rebut.Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-85625177190058783902015-06-29T08:35:00.002-07:002018-03-27T03:27:53.665-07:00A Learning Process.<div style="text-align: center;">
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i've been busy with studies. i am already on my second year of degree. my degree years are full of ups and downs. i've been faced all the struggles and alhamdulilah i am doing well at school. i just wanted to do well this time. i've had enough of listening people saying that i will fail in life. i need to prove them wrong. all these years, i've been so weak. this time, i want to grow.</div>
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last February, i met someone online. i didn't expect to fall in love with someone especially online but somehow i am truly amazed with her personality. and she is 8 years older than me. i am turning 21 years old this year btw. but age means nothing. love wins. decided to met her and everything we went well. four months we are being together and i feel unlimited happiness when i am around her. and i thank God for letting her came into my life. just right in time when i feel lost, empty and broken.</div>
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i learnt so many things from her, one thing is <i>PATIENCE.</i></div>
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why patience? when i am with her i can say that i am being childish. i am being immature. i am full of ego. and i want things to be done quickly. but she taught me to grow up, act like a man, and expect less. sometimes we just have to be patient because not everything will go in our way. and we couldn't let anger get the best of us. there is a time i get grumpy because of late replies, she will get mad because i should be understanding of her condition. she has commitments. and i am just being immature. there is a time i am being grumpy on purpose, i want her attention. but she will slowly explain this and that to me so that i won't do the same mistake again.</div>
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it feels amazing. i never been in this situation where i feel like every day is learning process for me. i learnt about relationship. dating an older woman is not that bad at all. she is experienced in life. whether it's her career, knowledge, relationships or even bedroom ok ni tunggu kahwin haha. she is confident and she can teach me anything i wanted to know. and she is always there whenever i need life lessons or advices from her. she let me be myself. that's the best thing about her.</div>
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and when she is around, i can do well on studies. i don't believe in "being in love makes you lose focus on studies" i believe you can do better when you are happy. that's all.</div>
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i am crazy in love, i am crazy over her. i must to admit that. and i just can't deny that anymore.</div>
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she is willing to accept me at my worst. she is willing to let me love her endlessly. she is willing to do anything to make me happy. she is willing to be there through my fat & thin days. she doesn't care about what people think of me. i am enough for her. she never failed to make me laugh with her corny and stupid jokes. her sweetness.</div>
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her smile. her laugh. her willingness to be with me, is what makes me stay from the day 1 till now. we act like lovers & best friends at the same time. she is willing to let me stay in her life and learn about life and so many things and improve as a person. there are times i am being grumpy because of silly things but she is willing to handle me with care like i am fragile stuff and that makes me love her even more.</div>
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and i am willing to do the same thing for her.</div>
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even i can't do much, but i am trying my best to achieve something great that can make you proud of me. i am trying each day to better lover. and my love for you is growing.</div>
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and my advice is, don't cheat. someone who cheats make simple issue become a big deal to someone who tried everything to work things out and make their relationship lasts. relationship needs effort from both ways. not only from one person.</div>
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what can i say is that, relationship is a learning process. we made mistakes like everyday. but have the courage to say sorry and learn from your mistakes. you will be improve as a human being.</div>
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you will be better in life, studies and so many things. when you learn how to accept that it's always okay to make mistakes. we make and made mistakes. but don't repeat the same mistakes.</div>
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ada peluang, gunakan sebaik mungkin. nak jadi orang yang jujur, jadilah. nak jadi orang yang setia, jadilah. nak jadi jahat ke, nak jadi apa ke, jadilah. hidup ada pilihan, and you need to be ready for the consequences for your choice. life has choices. when you are in a relationship, trust is a must. kalau tak ada kepercayaan, buat apa bersama lagi. buang masa. hidup ni sentiasa ada pilihan, orang yang macam mana nak. yang baik ke jahat ke, kita ada pilihan. tapi nak yang setia & jujur, kita sendiri kena jadi macam tu. tak nak lah expect yang bagus, diri sendiri kelaut.</div>
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thank you for all the opportunities you gave to me to let me to get to know you. thanks for believing in me when everyone doesn't and just walk away from me, thanks for putting a smile on my face when i wake up in the morning and when i am about to sleep at night. thanks for being the reason for whatever i am doing right now. thank you for making me stronger than before. and last but not least, thank for staying with me. thank you for what you've done for me. you are my person.</div>
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<i>i hope she reads this. because she falls asleep early.</i></div>
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<i>ok here's a thing baby, i love you more than you'll ever know.</i></div>
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<i>i hope you know that i am trying every single day for us.</i></div>
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<i>stay cute bb i love you</i></div>
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Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-61980615885050862112015-03-06T07:27:00.002-08:002018-03-27T03:28:12.061-07:00Biasakan Diri.<i><b>sekarang kena biasakan diri.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>bangun tak ada orang whatsapp atau call kejutkan subuh. waking up without reading all those sweet conversation and stuff. biasakan diri tak cari orang yang kita pertama cari setiap kali bangun pagi. hantar mesej yang boleh gembirakan orang jauh. yang makin lama makin jauh. kena biasakan diri.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>susah, tapi kena biasakan diri.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>habis rutin harian. kena biasakan diri tak ada orang call/mesej benda yang menyenangkan. benda yang boleh buat kita ceria. kena biasakan diri tak ada semua benda tu dalam hidup.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>every little things you have done for me, i will remember all of that.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>kena biasakan diri tanpa suara, ketawa & semua yang buat diri ni cukup happy.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>biasakan diri tanpa semua rutin harian kita bersama.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>sakitnya bila rasa kehilangan. rasa macam tak boleh sorang-sorang.</b></i><br />
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<i><b>nak tinggalkan rutin harian kita bersama,</b></i><br />
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<i><b>memang susah sangat sangat.</b></i><br />
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p/s - i wrote this on 2 december 2013. one of my broken days.<br />
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i have guts to post it now because i think i already move on. and i am happier at this point of my life. i met a lot of great people. i've experienced heartbreaks. and alhamdulilah, life is getting better. life gets better. and i am happier. aku hargai mereka yang pergi & datang dalam hidup aku. i am now being extra careful.<br />
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so i wanted you guys to know that bila kita sedih macam mana pun, there are still ways to get back up. dan Tuhan tak pernah abaikan kita. Dia akan tunjuk jalan untuk bahagia. Dia akan tolong kita.<br />
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Dia bagi kita lebih apa yang kita perlu dalam hidup ni. Dia hadirkan orang yang baik baik untuk tolong kita. Dia beri macam macam. tak ada sebab untuk kita tak bersyukur dengan hidup kita ni. tak ada sebab langsung.<br />
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kita sakit kehilangan sebab kita fikir kita dapat rasa bahagia macam kita pernah dulu. kita salah, apa yang kita akan dapat lepas ni mungkin lebih baik daripada sebelumnya. kalau kita berusaha sebaik mungkin dan percaya.<br />
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kita selalu gambarkan yang buruk-buruk tentang masa depan.<br />
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sakit tu sekejap. pengajaran tu yang kita kena ingat sampai bila bila. jangan mudah sangat bagi kepercayaan dekat orang kalau tak nak sakit hati. jangan harapkan apa apa dari orang. jangan mudah sangat salahkan takdir.<br />
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study hard. work you ass off to get flying color result. get close to Him. build friendships and network. always expect less and do more. be genuinely happy. life is so much more than being in love with wrong person. that's all.<br />
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cheer up, my friends. life gets better. He knows best.<br />
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kita je kena biasakan diri, bila senang & susah, tetap cari Dia.<br />
jangan bila susah baru cari Dia & cakap Dia tak pernah adil.<br />
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biasakan diri dengan redha ketentuan Tuhan.<br />
biasakan diri bangun bila jatuh. jangan terus tersungkur.<br />
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biasakan diri.<br />
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:)Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-61969444540809083712014-02-18T01:58:00.003-08:002018-03-27T03:31:08.437-07:00Loving Someone's Girlfriend<div style="text-align: center;">
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dulu. aku pernah sayang orang yang dah ada bf. i met her around past few years. we contacted thru bbm every single day. on the phone every single night. we confessed our feelings. and thank god our feelings were mutual. and after few months being together, i figured it out that she actually has a boyfriend. i mean, dia pun satu. dia tak pernah cakap dia ada bf. and i believed what she told me. after few months being together, baru dia bagitahu dia sebenarnya dah ada bf. and i cried every night thinking why i am such a fool.</div>
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and weird part is, aku tak marah. sebab i really love her. having her by my side is enough. dia keluar dengan bf, aku tak text. bila dia bosan baru dia cari aku, call aku, text aku. it hurts so much. i cried so much. sakit bila nampak gambar dia dengan bf dia. at the same time, aku rasa aku memang tak boleh bersama dia. bila aku stalk dia, aku yang sakit. aku rasa macam orang paling bodoh dalam dunia.</div>
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so i choose to ignore her for few months. because i wanted to move on. and she contacted me back on first day raya. asking me for a forgiveness and stuff. aku pun maafkan dia. yang lepas biarkan lepaskan.</div>
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so kami jadi kawan. yes kawan. tapi dia still macam dulu. can't stop calling me sayang and stuff. it kills me every single time she did that. i will ended up crying so hard because i miss her. and it breaks my heart because right now we are just friends. and she still want me back. not as a friend. but as a lover. </div>
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tell me how can i move on when she always called me sayang? wanting me back as her lover?</div>
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but when i asked her to choose me over her boyfriend. she didn't want to. it's ridiculous.</div>
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when i am trying to leave and forget everything we have. she convinced me that she will leave him. but no. she didn't leave him. i know that she loves me and her boyfriend equally. she said that. i don't know. but i really love her to death and i was afraid to lose her but i choose to forget her and just move on.</div>
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when i am actually on my away to forget her, she texted me, she called me. telling me that she missed me so much. i didn't react. because god knows how much i am hurting that time. i am in love with someone' gf. she has boyfriend. and why the fuck i am doing with her? why i am such a fool? love makes me stupid.</div>
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i asked her to appreciate her boyfriend. go back to her boyfriend. but she didn't want to. i asked her to choose me over her boyfriend. but still, she didn't want to. it hurts. because i have future plans with her. but now she broke my heart into pieces because she didn't know how to make bold decisions in life.</div>
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we love each other so much. i am happy when i am with her. she is happy when she is with me. but still she is deeply in love with her boyfriend. and afraid to to figure out what is best for her. she didn't want to choose.</div>
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and yes i choose to rid of my feelings for her.</div>
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it's crazy to love two person at the same time. it's a crazy thing to do.</div>
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i learnt that happiness never lasts. i gotta let her go. at some point, i have to.</div>
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i should respect the other dude and keep my distance. </div>
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you can't help who you love, just don't make her cheat on her boyfriend.</div>
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there is a saying, "all is fair in love and war".</div>
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if you can keep her with you is another story. </div>
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if she can leave him for you, she can just as likely leave you for someone else.</div>
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so, is it ever okay to fall in love with someone else's gf/bf?</div>
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yes, it is ok. It happens to the best of people. feelings aren't really under our control. they are not right or wrong, they just are. what we do have control over is our reaction to our feelings. some reactions are healthy (i.e. keeping appropriate boundaries between yourself and a girl who has a boyfriend or a boy who has a girlfriend) and some reactions are unhealthy. you seem to already know how to excersise good judgement in this situation. </div>
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i have no idea if that girlfriend/boyfriend relationship is serious or not. you have a better understanding of that than I do. one thing is for sure, a boyfriend is not the same as a husband. they haven't taken vows. there is always a chance things could be quite different in the future. i wouldn't intrude into their space though, as long as they are still a couple.</div>
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but still stealing a person's gf/bf of course is a bad thing. why don't you put yourself in the situation before doing anything. would you like it if someone come between you and your gf/bf? i don't think so. i know sometimes you will fall for a girl/guy who already have a bf/bf but it doesn't mean you should steal someone else bf/gf.</div>
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i think it's bad to steal another guy's gf. If the girl likes you more than the other guy, then she needs to break up with her current bf first. if she went out with you before she broke up with the other guy, she is cheating on that guy. and what makes you think she won't cheat on you? ask yourself.</div>
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and yes ways to forget someone's gf/bf. (if you wanted to)</div>
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accept the reality of it, dia mungkin bukan untuk kau. kau mungkin bukan untuk dia. you tried your best. moving forward, ignore that person, forget that person (even it's hard like hell) & move on. don't listen to sad songs, tak payah dengar lagu sedih for the time being. you will miss that person even more. go out and have fun with your family and friends. of course. make yourself busy. don't cry over someone who doesn't love you or like you. easy. stop stalking, tak payah stalk dia lagi. or else you will get hurt. if you think about that person - think about another person! don't call or text.</div>
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go listen to music, hangout with your friends, have a good time, stop dwelling on your past, there are billions of people n in the world, one tiny fish in the sea is not going to make your life worse, you have to be confident in your self and realize that you have the guts to move on. wasting your time with that person is going to make your life worse, realize that that person is nothing anymore, find a new best friend, never regret yourself that you loved that person, don't think that you're failure in love & be happy.</div>
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and yes, at the end of the day, it's her/his choice who she/he wants to be with. she/he will breakup with his/her bf if she/he feels that she/he will be happier with you. don't lose hope. give it a shot, if you fail, then leave.</div>
Lucaspeebohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14225313186034229062noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1436407434155966397.post-83112563696063684512013-12-21T02:54:00.004-08:002018-03-27T03:30:41.942-07:00Aku Tak Akan Pernah Lupa.<div style="text-align: center;">
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kadang kadang hidup ni kejam sangat. kenapa orang yang paling kita sayang, orang yang paling rapat dengan kita akan pergi dari kita? kenapa bukan orang lain? kenapa? tapi itu semua Allah dah rancang baik baik untuk kita. percaya lah dekat Dia. semua ada hikmah. sakit mana pun. ada hikmah. Dia nak uji.</div>
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hanya Allah tahu betapa sakitnya bila kena berhadapan dengan bermacam macam ragam manusia dengan perangai yang pelbagai tapi takpa Dia bagi kekuatan. kena banyak bersabar je.</div>
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mereka yang meninggalkan aku, aku anggap mereka adalah satu pengajaran aku untuk terus bangun dan teruskan hidup aku macam biasa. atleast they made me happy before. atleast they gave me something.</div>
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aku sentiasa ingat apa benda segala kebaikan yang mereka buat untuk aku. tapi itulah, manusia berubah. at some point in life, everyone leaves. and we need to endure the pain. and we will get through this. insyaAllah. </div>
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mereka yang cakap macam macam tentang aku, aku dah lama maafkan dorang. sebab aku malas nak hidup dalam kebencian nanti aku juga sakit. baik aku diam & abaikan. teruskan hidup aku macam biasa.</div>
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mereka yang mengabaikan aku bila aku susah. tak apa. aku faham. tak ada siapa yang mahu dekat dengan orang yang tak punya apa apa yang hendak dibanggakan. aku faham aku redha aku sedar.</div>
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mereka yang maki hamun aku kutuk itu ini caci sindir perli aku sebab aku ini kurang sana sini, tak apa. aku pun dah maafkan dorang. sebab manusia mana ada yang sempurna. tak apalah. biarkan mereka.</div>
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mereka yang tipu aku dan mengambil kesempatan keatas diri aku. tak apa. teruskan niat murni korang. sampai bila bila aku ingat. sampai mati aku ingat. sebab aku tak akan pernah lupa. </div>
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aku dah maafkan. itu lebih dari cukup rasanya.</div>
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tapi,</div>
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aku tak akan lupa apa yang buat dekat aku.</div>
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aku tak akan lupa, tolong ingat tu sampai mati.</div>
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kau tak boleh datang dalam hidup aku, </div>
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dan cuba untuk pura pura konon tak ada apa berlaku.</div>
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no it's not going to happen.<br />
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i am not fool.</div>
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aku tak akan pernah lupa mereka yang meninggalkan aku.</div>
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aku tak akan pernah lupa mereka yang abaikan aku.</div>
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aku tak akan pernah lupa mereka yang tipu aku hidup hidup.</div>
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aku tak akan pernah lupa mereka yang caci maki aku.</div>
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jadi jangan pernah datang dekat aku, </div>
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dan pura pura kau ada masa aku perlukan kau,</div>
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jangan pernah datang dekat aku, </div>
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bila aku dah berjaya, </div>
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bila aku punya semua.</div>
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apa orang buat dekat aku selama ni, </div>
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aku diamkan, aku iyakan, aku sabar, </div>
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sebab aku malas nak bergaduh macam bodoh.</div>
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tapi tunggu satu hari nanti.</div>
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jangan cakap "hey sombongnya", </div>
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masa aku dah berjaya satu hari nanti, </div>
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kalau mulut sial kalau hari hari maki aku.</div>
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ok?</div>
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sebab aku tak akan pernah lupa,</div>
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tak akan pernah lupa.</div>
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ingat sampai mati.<br />
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<i>life is full of fake and judgemental people. everyone leaves. life, it works like that. you have to take care of yourself. nobody is going to look after to you. when people are being mean to you, be patience. ignore them. just let them be. one day, they will know how great and awesome you are. remember, Allah is there for you. you could really depend on Him instead of depend on others. don't let anyone define who you are. just protect yourself and your heart. be bold in making decisions. don't lose hope. take care & stay strong. </i></div>
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